Currently Watching Ocean's Twelve (Widescreen Edition) see related

Hey,

So I'm gonna be jumping back and forth between this journal and another blog.  You can also find me at adventuresofstacky.blogspot.com

Hope to see you all there too.

Stacy

Currently Listening Perfect Day By Josh Bates see related

Well here is the update:

- My mom is doing better.  Thank you to those of you who are keeping her in your prayers.  She's still pretty bruised, and doesn't feel comfortable seeing anyone.  Hopefully she'll be more confident soon.

- The "financial" issue isn't going to be as bad as we hoped.  For the most part, insurance is covering the medical bills and we're getting some money from the car for a new one.  Car shopping is the next big task, so we'll just see how that goes.

Right now I'm sitting at school waiting for my evening class. (YUCK).  I've been lucky enough to not have to attend every week but now I'm spoiled and don't want to go when we have to.  Hopefully he won't be keeping us too long, we'll just wait and see.

Oh, yeah...remember the whole Beavercreek Construction thing that I was fuming about a couple of entries ago...yeah...they are pretty much in our driveway (well rather blocking the entrance to our driveway now.  And we STILL haven't heard any warning from anyone (no city, no landlords...even though we've attempted to contact both).  So for the time being we'll be parking in the church parking lot two doors down.  And if you plan on making any surprise visits...you might as well plan on parking there too.

Well, I'm out of stuff right now to talk about.  Actually...thats a lie .  Really I just don't think its appropriate for me to talk about in my journal that everyone and their cousins uncle can read.

Well for now...peace out.

Man its loud in here...I'm trying to listen to my cd player but i can't hear myself think over the blaring of some band playing outside (aaaaaahhhhhhh)

So, a big thank you to all of you who are keeping my mom in your prayers.  She is doing ok but definately seems to be getting worse before she gets better.

For those of you who don't know...Sunday was just a "bad" day.  It started with an incredibly weird experience at church.  We were practicing the worship songs for service when the power just went out.  Now, we had been having trouble with the breaker switching on and off for a while with all the equipment but this time the power in the whole church went out...and when we went outside, the power in the whole neighborhood was out.  The first thing I was thinking was, "I gotta call my dad"  he usually was at church by then but wasn't there yet on Sunday and we thought someone might have run into a transformer thing.  Turns out he was ok...actually still in bed...but I thought I should go ahead and let my parents know that the power was out and the stop lights were not working.  So everything was ok and those of us at the church still were just hanging around thinking about what we would do if the power didn't come back on and thinking of the irony that the power went out right after we sang the song "More Love, More Power".

So we go to Sunday school and come back to find that the power on but we're still going to do an "unpluged" set.  By now its 10:10 and my parents are still not around.  Some people said they saw my dad in the parking lot but then saw him drive away.  I wasn't too surprised by this though because he oftentimes doesn't feel like being at church on Sunday morning so I guessed he had gone home. I hadn't seen my mom yet, though, but I thought she was in the kitchen doing something to get ready for the Minister Appreciation banquet after church.  So we finished our first worship set and still no sign of my parents.  Then as Bob got up to preach a Bill came over and tapped me on the shoulder, signalling me to follow him to the back.  He told me that he had seen my mom was in a car accident and it looked pretty nasty but she was out of the car and walking at least.  He didn't know whether to tell me or not but thankfully stucker told him that I should know.

Come to find out my dad had called her while she was on her way to church.  As she was approaching the intersection I think she thought the light wasn't on, but then was distracted with the workers on the side of the road fixing the generator that had blown causing the power outage ealier.  Next thing you know, she is heading toward the middle of the intersection and she notices her light is red...she blacks momentarily and is hit by a truck heading perpendicular to the direction she was going.  Thank goodness there weren't any worse injuries...had she been even a couple seconds later, the truck would have hit her door and there's no telling how that would have ended up.  The only thing she remembers is recognizing the airbag going off and her head felt funny.  My dad drove her to the emergency room to get her checked out...other than a huge not on her head and quite a bit of bruising she was ok.  Emotionally, however is a totally differnt scenerio.  My dad feels bad because he was on the phone with her when it happened.  Its when he shot out of the parking lot that he was heading to the accident.  My mom was doing ok at first but now the bruising is worse and she is really depressed and will probabaly be staying in the house for a while.  And as she said...the worst is probably on the way.  There is a citation to pay and they have to get a new car to replace my mom's which was old and beyond repair.  So please keep my parents in your prayers, physically, emotionally and financially.

So now to talk about some not so important details.  Come to find out...there were like 2 or 3 families who saw the accident on their way to church.  They thought it might be my mom but didn't say anything to me.  WHAT?!?!?!?!  I guess I need to understand that without knowing for sure it was best not to get me worried if it wasn't the case, but either way, my parents didn't even intend to tell me until my mom was out of the hospital and back at home.  They were concerned about my other responsiblities (like the fact that I had to work that day).  I guess I hope that I haven't reached a point where I put work as more valuable than the people in my life. I hadn't thought that I was doing that, but maybe it doesn't look that way.

Well, all things considered, at least everyone is safe now.

Gotta start paying attention in class now...

Currently Gaming INFOGRAMES Tonka Construction 2 For Windows 95/98 By Infogrames see related

beep beep beep beep beep beep beep....vrooooooom....beep beep beep beep beep beep....vrooooom

The Tonka truck thing helps to illustrate the construction going on about a yard in front of my door.

Yeah, this is all I have been hearing all day long.  Have I ever mentioned how much I HATE the city of Beavercreek right now .  Apparently they are working on widening our road or adding a side walk or something but it has gone way out of hand.

About two hours ago I watched them load up two truck loads of dirt from about a block down the road and come and dump it in our yard.  Now our floor is shaking because they are steamrolling...yes steamrolling this junk in our yard.  It started a long time ago with  strange men in our yard and in fact right by our front window hammering pegs in the yard.  Since then there have been about 10 more pegs, hunks of cement construction junk and trash in our yard.  This has gotten really out of hand.  To make it worse, they haven't notified us of any of this.  I contacted out landlords today to see if they have heard anything about any of this stuff and just failed to let us know.  But who knows...tomorrow we may be stuck in the house because we can't get out of our driveway because of their trucks and equipment parked there.

So if you couldn't tell...today just hasn't been a good day.  I woke up to the sound of construction and a serious headache so I spent most of the morning on the couch.  It wasn't until about an hour ago that I decided to finally get out of the house...mainly because I'm tired of the construction.  The funniest thing was that as I was backing out I kept honking my horn (pepto thought they were were going to think some nutjob lives here), I was only returning the favor...since they have been so nice to let me know when they are backing up all day long.  Now I'm back and finding it hard to concentrate on my homework.  I JUST NEED OUT OF HERE!!!!!

Thats all for now.  Thanks for all of your comments on my previous post.  Yeah things are a just a little crazy right now...from every aspect I guess.  Hopefully it will calm down and begin to make more sense eventually.

Have a good afternoon/evening,

Stacy

Currently Listening Carried Me: The Worship Project By Jeremy Camp see related

Well...as the hour glass turns...so these are the days of our lives.

Ok, so I had to throw that in there because my life feels like its on the verge of a soap opera right now.

I've been talking about this situation with Michigan lately.  Well, he talked to me on IM last night again.  Now, I know to an extent that I opened up those opportunities by actually being signed on, however, let it be known that I didn't begin any of the conversations.  So, like I said he started talking to me last night and it was down hill from there.  It upset Pepto that I was talking to him because she is really protective of me (as many others of you) and doesn't want to see me get hurt again.  What I really just want people to understand is that I have absolutely no idea why any of this is happening right now.  For all I know...I need to at least be here IF he feels the need to talk to me.  I don't know what God might be doing in his life but I'm trying to at least do the best I can to be forgiving (even if it puts me in a slightly vulnerable situation).  In NO WAY am I looking to get back into a relationship with him now.  But I feel like people aren't giving me the benefit of the doubt that I'm doing the best I can.  I'm just finally reaching that understanding that no one else around me understands God's will for me any better than I do right now.

But just in case you wanted to know...I ended the conversation again last night asking him why he wanted to start talking to me again.  He said he didn't know what God's will was and he is trying to figure it out.  And he thinks we need to at least reconcile our friendship...just not in person yet because he doesn't know what God wants and if we should meet on our own or have someone else there.  I responded by saying that I've been praying about it to but until he has a clear understanding of what he feels God wants him to do and is ready and willing to act boldly and speak to me directly...we need to keep our distance.  Who knows how long it will be now before he contacts me again.  But its just become such an emotional strain.  And NOT just because of him...but because of several people around me leaving me with the assumptions that they feel is isn't worth any time of day or the opposite of thinking I should "give him another chance".  Who would have ever thought that this relationship would lead to so much "spiritual warfare" in my opinion.  Not that it is good verses evil but just not being able to discern what in the world I'm involved in this situation for.  So for now, he shouldn't be trying to talk to me on im until he is ready to call me and sit down face to face and talk about things.

On another note, I talked to Redwing's sister the other day.  I had "several" people telling me I needed to at least say something to her.  She handled it very well and didn't make me feel awkward at all.  So, while she did reassure me that he more than likely wouldn't feel the same way about me, it made me feel good that I at least told her and can now just move on.   

So now i'm back to square one.  I've been "thinking" about these guys for a while and I've resolved the issues to the best of my ability at this present time.  And yeah...it doesn't sound like a really happy ending now does it, but its where I am right now I guess.

Oh well, I must remember that I have a prince charming out there somewhere and he is looking for me...he just doesn't know it yet .

Well I hope you all have  a good day.  I have to get back to studying for my test in the next hour.  Yeah, I'm not prepared at all...but can you see how must I'm preparing right now for it.  At least these conversations I had dealt with communication in some way. (RIIIIIGHT)